1st September, 2014

So, I have these….. 4pt

Eeeeeppp! Official Test Day is Wednesday, but these are looking good!


30th August, 2014

The 2WW. The dreaded 2WW. It is hard. It’s the longest 2 weeks in the history of mankind. I’ve had a few days where I’ve felt really low, and teary. A couple of days where I’ve cried lots. This is hard. I thought that my friends would rally round, but actually it’s the kindness of people that I don’t really know that has got me through the last few days. Not really got much else to write. Official Test Day is Wednesday 3rd September, so not long now 😉

16th August, 2014

Lots has happened this week! I had my first progress scan on Tuesday, I had 14 follicles that looked promising, the clinic were happy with my progress. I had another low day that day though. I had my follow up appointment with my consultant, for my surgery. Once again I left feeling like they hadn’t answered my questions at all. I feel so frustrated with them. I’m so worried about the thyroid antibodies and the fact that they do not acknowledge them as a problem…..

So, I headed into my next progress scan yesterday morning, to be told I had just 4 follicles, with maybe one or two that could catch up. I was (still am) gutted. I feel like I have been through so much and my body has failed me yet again. I’ve been instructed to do my trigger shot, I’m just hoping that the other 2 will catch up….

I have just done my trigger shot. It’s going to be so strange not waking to do my buserelin injection tomorrow morning, I’ve had my alarm set for the last few weeks so that I don’t miss it.

Egg collection scheduled for 09.30 on Monday morning, I’m truly hoping that I have more eggs by then. I know it’s quality over quantity, I was just hoping for some that we could freeze!

Will keep you updated……..

7th August, 2014.

I’m sorry I’ve not updated for a little while, life has been busy!

I carried on taking the buserelin injections, which have become second nature to me now, they don’t phase me at all. I’ve had a few side effects, mostly hot flushes (my goodness, they take you by surprise!) and feeling very emotional. For example, we went to the NEXT sale, before we went in, I wanted something to eat, so we got some baked potatoes, I had cheese and beans, The Husband had chilli and cheese. I passed comment that mine didn’t have enough cheese on, so The Husband got a fork full of cheese from his and put it on mine, and I burst into tears – even now I’m tearing up just thinking about it! The Husband just looked at me and told me he loved me, which made me cry even more! The havoc that IVF plays on your hormones is crazy!

I started a new job whilst down regging, I have returned to nursing after training to be a midwife, there are no posts for midwives at the moment, so I’m biding my time. The return to work has been a fabulous distraction and has allowed me to focus on something different, which has been a Godsend, really.

I had my baseline scan on Monday, all went well, ovaries nice and dormant, uterine lining nice and thin, so I had the go ahead to start stims! Yay, now the fun begins! I’ve had 2 lots of menopur so far and today I can feel my ovaries tingling a little, so hopefully they are starting to do what they need to do. I’m on alternating doses of menopur, I’m sure they did that just to keep me on my toes! Mixing the menopur is a bit of a faff, I had to do it at work last night, on my break, in the public disabled loo – nice! I’ve got to find somewhere else in public to do it this evening too, so that should be fun!

I’m still having acupuncture, which I am loving – I always feel so positive afterwards, so even if it’s just a placebo effect, it’s helping me.

Next scan is on Tuesday, hopefully I’ll have lots of lovely looking follicles, fingers crossed!

14th July, 2014

Day 2 of Buserelin today. I had a bit more of a meltdown this morning, the thought of doing this for the next few weeks was overwhelming, but I manned up, and did it, on the other leg from yesterday. It felt a little easier, but certainly not something I am enjoying doing. I’ve been reading up on the side effects of Buserelin today, I think most women tend to feel really tired, sluggish, and maybe a bit less tolerant, with a shorter temper – oh my lucky, lucky husband!  I had more acupuncture today, and felt very odd for about a couple of hours afterwards, slightly vacant, very tearful, but ready for an almighty arguement! Thankfully The Husband was very lovely (we’re both on annual leave at the moment) and just pandered to me. I hope this isn’t going to be how I am, but I guess I will know as we go on.

5th June, 2014

Well, it’s been a little while, hasn’t it! Not much has happened, really, until yesterday. The Husband and I have decided we are going to leave our current clinic, and go to a private clinic that offers NHS funded treatment. We had our heart set on Nottingham Care, but unfortunately our CCG will not transfer our funding for there. We were told it either the current clinic we are at, or Midland Fertility Services. We went to an open evening there, and they have been nothing but super, super helpful! I’ve had consultants look over my history and advise us, despite me not officially being a patient there! There might be an issue with funding, although hopefully not, as my CCG have said that they will happily support our transfer there, it’s just something the clinic haven’t done with someone from my area before.


So, what happened yesterday? Well, I’ve been waiting for a date for tubal surgery – which came through last Friday, for next Monday. I had a couple of queries, so contacted my consultant, who was patronising and suggested we had another consultation prior to surgery. So we did, yesterday. It transpires that we had been given the wrong information. The Husband and I were strongly under the impression that my tubes were blocked from start to finish, and were ‘mangled beyond repair’. They’re not. The tubes are blocked at the point where they attach to the uterus, which in terms of tubal blockage, is probably the best blockage to have, and easiest to rectify, hurray! Downside is the adhesions are a lot more severe than we thought, with both ovaries adhering to either the pelvic wall, or other adhesions. From what they visualised in the surgery in January, both tubes and ovaries are healthy. So, surgery on Monday to remove the adhesions and unblock both tubes, if successful, we’ll be back in the world of TTC, which we haven’t been in for a long, long time! IVF is still on the agenda, thinking possibly around November time. I’m really trying not to get my hopes up, but I can’t help but feel that we have a little bit of a chance now!

Monday 7th April, 2014.

It’s been ages since I updated, I kept meaning to, but I didn’t.


So, the clinic appointment went well, the results were confirmed that I do indeed have bilaterally blocked fallopian tubes and I do indeed need IVF, possibly with ICSI and The Husbands semen analysis showed just 1% morphology (cry!). The consultant did suggest surgery to unblock my tubes, and I’m waiting for my surgery date. She suggested trying to unblock both tubes, and removing the adhesions around my ovary. The consultant also confirmed that I have autoimmune thyroiditis, my body is destroying my own thyroid (nice, eh?). I asked about steroid treatment prior to egg collection and during pregnancy, and she was very dismissive, saying that I didn’t need that, the medication that I am already on will be sufficient. So, all sounds good? Apparently not. The Husband and I went to CARE fertility in Nottingham for their open evening, and we spoke with the medical director about our situation. We explained The Husbands low morphology, my blocked tubes and adhesions and pending surgery, and my autoimmune thyroiditis. The medical director was really lovely, very approachable and we both felt like we had her undivided attention, we weren’t on a conveyor belt, which is how we feel at our current clinic. She agreed that ICSI was the way to go, that I would need additional treatment for my thyroid – which is what I suspected, and as for the surgery she recommended having the tubes removed if they can’t be unblocked due to risk of  fluid from the tubes returning to the uterus and compromising implantation. She said that I shouldn’t have the adhesions removed, as this may alter the blood supply to my ovary, and impact on my ovarian reserve. She really was a breath of fresh air, we felt like we were being guided, rather than having to wade through this on our own. I think we have made our decision to go to CARE fertility, we just need to battle with the CCG to transfer our funding to Nottingham….