Monday 20th January 2014

I promise I won’t keep posting daily updates – but this is new to me, and I am finding it hard to process. As I’ve mentioned before, we have known we have issues with our fertility for a long time, but when we’ve talked about it to other people (family, close friends etc) it’s just been easier to say ‘we probably need IVF’ rather than going into all the ins and outs of the different types of treatment we could have. Everyone knows what IVF is, so it was just easier. So when I told people about the results of the op, nobody really seemed phased by it. I just don’t think people understand how gut-wrenching it has been to be told that nothing else will work. Only IVF. One of my best friends came to see me today, I was really hoping I could just talk about it, but she didn’t enable me to, the subject was changed, or I was made to feel like she had been through worse (she had some investigations, but when on to have 2 natural conceptions, normal pregnancies and normal deliveries). I felt so let down. Then to top it off she told me the story of one of her friends who hasn’t had a period for about a year, felt really ill, went to the GP before Christmas and yes, you guessed it, was 12 weeks pregnant. This girl is apparently 30 today, but ‘she can’t have any alcohol, but she’s having a party on Friday, so that’s OK.’ Just what I wanted to hear!